jan 24 - it's personal
the other night i dreamt that i was part of a traveling carnival, and i was "the lady who remembers everything". the only thing was i think i sucked at it, and i wondered how i did the last time i performed. and then i got giggly with jenn aniston over being in a gig with mark wahlberg, rock star-era. also, jenn aniston spoke BM.
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hi tv shows that i used to love to watch so much,
well, something happened in your absence. it wasn't on purpose, i promise, but... it kinda crept up on me. i mean, i didn't even know it was happening! and when i knew, it had already happened. by then i was in too far and deep to do anything about it, and, the truth is, i do not want to do anything about it. it started out so harmless, just a little, here and there, oh, it's on? well there's nothing good on tv now so why not. and then the i wonder what time it is on weekly? and then i started caring about them. i didn't want to, but the heart wants what it wants. and when i suddenly began to appreciate him that it hit me, hard, like, HARD: i like to watch CSI: Miami. i know when it's on: wednesdays 10/11pm (still not sure). and it's repeats: sundays 11pm. i waited up for it. and if i miss the wednesday ones i'd catch up on sundays. yes, it's true. i am a fan. but wait, it gets worse. i think i appreciate horatio caine. i know!! i know. I KNOW. i'll never live it down, but that's the truth. i used to not be able to stand that guy. but now, i don't know, i just feel like he is so honest in his work. he really cares about the victims, or what happens to their families. it's not just a job, business for him, it's personal. but don't worry, it will never be the romantic kind of appreciation, it's just... he's a good man. is how i feel. um. i also appreciate you not bursting out laughing right about now. i'm a fragile flower sometimes too, you know.
so, that's it! i hope you come back again, real soon, so that i have something else to watch besides CSI: Miami!
bye!