dec 10 - at 5.30 in the morning
yesterday mr. messner still hasn't said a word to me. i feel his disappointment, though, we watched the biggest loser asia the night before and i am sure he wanted me to push myself harder. i should push myself harder. i am a wreck when it comes to the floor exercises so he felt that i should apply myself more in the earlier routines. i feel the same way, but it was... hard... pain... floating sensation...
suddenly i had visions of myself running up and down the stairs at 5.30 in the morning. pleasing him is what matters.
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i posted a joke on twilight on facebook and it had no takers. heeee.