april 03 - obsessed
in my dream we were in bali. some people we know rented a car and then disappeared. i received a phone call from the company. the person at the other end told me, in case of a person's disappearance, that person wanted me to know that he liked me.
uh... even my dreams are pathetic.
Dear H,
i still think of you, but only when in boring meetings or seminars. it's pretty funny, that. sometimes i don't even remember the lyrics to a song i used to know last month, but of your memories i can recall in an instant. i hate that i can selectively remember, but, yeah. i guess i'm not ready to let that go yet.
you must be all grown-up now. maybe even married. strapping, matured.
only in recent times i begin to think of you with your name intact.
hope you are well.
book 7 - GOD I AM ONLY ON BOOK 7 and this is the fourth month i should be on book 16! !!!! book 7 was the child of the holy grail by rosalind miles. i find this an interesting re-telling of the arthur's tale. maybe it's the almost accurate one(from the non-fiction legends)? don't have a mention of tristan, though. gawain didn't meet a beautiful girl disguised as a hag either. what we get the most is guinivere and lancelot's love story. also, in this one elaine is very pathetic. which i hate to think of her that way. in the end, though, it was kind of sad when telling about arthur's last voyage into the lake. my heart kind of broke reading about the casting of the excalibur and the hand that swung it thrice. for some reason it struck deep. also when arthur was placed in the cave with all his knights around him. almost shed a tear. almost. btw, the child of the holy grail is lancelot's boy galahad.
so that's book 7. sigh. i'm thinking to speed through to number teens i might have to settle reading SVH, SVT or SVK. (sweet valley)
speaking of which i have been haunting thedairiburger.com which is soooo wicked. SVH is kind of silly. but seriously SV shaped my world of fiction writing. all my stories are placed in SV, or places close in description of SV(or big mesa?). because that is all i know of the american world. heeee.
i'm worried about going on this holiday. is there such thing as healthily obsessed?
why are single women sad and single men glad? i'm not sad... most of the time.