feb 18 - chewing thing
mother told me of a relative who found jodoh quite the easy way: he frequented a stall and found a girl who was helping her sister run it. they got married soon after that.
ha, mom. i have in my head a million scenes imagined for a meet-cute every time i go out. every time. not lucky yet. or maybe the very act of imagining something happening is working the karma against it. i don't know.
i'm trying this thing which is chewing food for forty times before swallowing and not drinking 30 minutes before and after each meal. both are very hard to do. i do the chewing thing and ended up being the last to finish a meal in a group. it was weird. and apparently the torture of waiting 20 minutes to drink is akin to driving the cats to their favorite babysitter.
i think i've actually given up. it's not meant to be, and despite going to be 33 years old this year, i've been feeling dumb and stupid just like 23 year old(me).