19th march - when i found love in emma and killian
cecil has passed on early sunday morning. he was a good boy right to the end. he has been the only cat to give hugs willingly and sometimes, asking.
work has been overwhelming. constantly feeling not good enough or not doing a good job. maybe it's true but what else can i do except to plod along and wish things will get better.
my coping mechanism has at first been listening to music by the original kids of glee, then i found something else: shipping captain swann.
i am truly coping by having an unhealthy obsession over emma swan and killian jones/captain hook being together. i am absolutely infatuated over the two of them being in love and the way they are with each other. i love it so much, i love them so much. and i love him so much. he makes me smile and it seems that is all i am asking these days.
not a day goes by since sunday that i am not glued to youtube watching video moments and clips of them together. i have favorites now.
this is okay. i am okay because i have them.
i hope they stay together a long time and not... emma of course wouldn't die because what would once upon a time be without her? i hope killian doesn't die. i sincerely hope he would not.