8th july - crap
not exactly sure why, but today i came to work and i literally feel dead inside.
while driving to the parking lot this morning, i was telling myself i owe it to all the OKU people working to do the best i can because i am able bodied. i saw a guy in one of the shop here, he was blind. and he was working to earn a decent living. i am able bodied with a position to lead people. and i am not supposed to feel defeated.
but i am. i feel defeated. i dont know what im doing and how to be better. it feels like everything that i am working on i crap. do i even know what i'm supposed to be doing, or even doing it right?