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every now and then i fall apart

21st march - where i am

because i think i got it bad and it could be one of the reasons contributing to why i feel dead (despite the hobby of fountain pen and writing), i googled

instagram addiction
iphone addiction

i think it's because of depending on whatsapp to determine if everything is ok (via response to everything being said, in a timely manner, in a manner that is satisfactory), and then instagram scrolling. instagram scrolling is insane. it's essentially looking into the lives of other people, mostly people i have no influence over, strangers, and yet, they have an influence over me.
it put thoughts into my head over how things should be.
and those things are not the things that are happening in my life.
and those things are always grass is always greener.
or they manage it better.
or their lives are better.

so this is where i am now.